It’s All In Your Head

EVERYTHING IS A MATTER OF PERCEPTION

It was raining like cats and dogs outside and I could hear the rain hitting the ground very hard. I was lying on my bed and was feeling someone was as if someone was punching my heart. I was terribly traumatized at the turn of events spanning my life. I secretly wished that I didn’t had to see the next day. The pain and agony was unbearable. I had not slept for days. I was sinking into a well of depression.

I could see light at the end of the tunnel. My name is Samuel and I am Gay. I have been mocked everywhere. I work as a software professional and I do have the dexterity that IT industry demands. My programming skills are better than my peers. Whenever there is any major application issue or bug people do depend on me to resolve the issue. In spite of my skills I am always mocked, made fun of. People have never respected me or my skills. I feel suicidal almost every single day. My love life has no issues. My boyfriend really loves me. I could not live with this feeling of emptiness so I decided to share my problems with a friend. I called up Ryan. He is my best friend and my best advisor. I told him about the mental block in my life where I was incapable to think and move forward. He urged me to take some time off and introspect situations and emotions. I realized my mind was full of negativity. I had preconceived notions about people. I always looked down on myself. In spite of being dexterous, I considered myself a screw up and not good enough, which led to low self-esteem. I evaluated my cognitive behavioral patterns and performed an assessment about my strengths, weakness, expectation which lead me to believe that my perception about people, situation was wrong. I have always cribbed and complained and never ever expressed gratitude for what I have. Negative emotions had clogged my thought process.

I tried to change my outlook towards the reality of life. For me things had hit rock bottom, but they can’t get worst then this. I had nothing to loose. Being honest with yourself is very important for self -improvement. Often our emotions and misconceptions clouds our judgement on self-perception.

I just tried to ignore my negative emotions and for a change tried to act happy and feel positive. I did realize that it made me actually feel good. I smiled after a long long time. I felt a ray of confidence and air of satisfaction in my lungs. I smiled more. No matter who I encountered on my way, I was smiling. I stopped being grim and grouchy and started being awesome again. I was not mocked at all today. There was this colleague who always use to bully and forced me to work extra hours. His name was Damon. But today was different. Damon’s browbeating comments were retorted in sarcastic humor. I just could believe that my day could also be this wonderful. I was happy, contented. This had made me realize the importance and power of positive thoughts, feelings and emotions. I made it a point to stick to that happy feeling and things started to change dramatically. I have understood Perception creates reality.

When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. So changing of negative lens with which you view the world needs to be replaced with something more meaningful, hopeful, miraculous, divine, inspiring and empowering. Shift in perception happens when you are self-aware and your judgements about the circumstances and people are well evaluated .It is very important to pay close attention to what you are feeling. Feelings of anger, greed, jealously, envy, self-pity etc are feelings that will be detrimental .On the other hand feelings of hope, love, care, kindness create liberating experiences which will allow you to dream big, follow your gut and instincts and live your dream. I have realized the whole world, every being , the entire universe is nothing but energy. Every thought, every word, every act can be broken down to energy. Universe works on energy and whatever you give, be it positive energy or negative energy,it does boomerang back. At the end it is always about how you think. If you think about abundance and prosperity and you show immense gratitude about what you have. You will be endowed with happiness, prosperity, abundance. If your thoughts are negative, fearful, worrisome, gruesome then negativity is what follows.

My sister Amanda had a very unnatural phobia of public speaking. She had no speech issues while she was talking to us or her friends but when she had to talk in front of unknown people or public she would get anxiety attacks and would start stammering. She would really get embarrassed and would cry often. This issue could be traced back to those days when Amanda was in school and in elocution class she fumbled and for years she had this unfounded fear of public speaking ingrained in her subconscious which had created a belief system in her that she had stammering issues.

Your beliefs and perceptions are always manifested into reality. Your thoughts and perceptions build your identity.

So believe in yourself, reprogram your beliefs and play the game of life. You will surely be a winner.